12 juni, 2011

Succes is waking up in the morning, so excited about what you have to do that day, that you literally fly out the door, it is loving others and being beloved by them and it is enjoying every minute of your miserable life, succes is creating your own world and feeling happy in it, succes is chasing dreams.
I am stronger because i know my weakness
I am wise cause i know i have been foolish
i laugh because i have known sadness
Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anyting requires faith and believe in yourself, vision, hardwork, determination and dedication.
Remember all things are possible for those who believes and wants to
Change your mind, and change it again..
cause nothing is permanent


To trust someone means you trust them with your life
To trust someone is based on your clarity of judgement
To trust is to believe that the person has you 100%
Who could you trust in your greatest moment in need?
Who will be worthy of having your trust?
Will you be able to confide your trust among certain people?

27 mei, 2011

love is a game to so many people! theres some people who dont know what love is...its not like in movies and novels! Love is so much stronger than hate...and there comes a moment when you dont know what you feel hate or love.. think 2 seconds before you break someones heart,

20 mei, 2011

Dear Love,

I wish I were there when you died,
I should have been there to see you cry,
I should have said a sweet last goodbye.
I wish you could've had a little more time.

I'm sorry my love that I wasn't there,
I should've showed you how much I cared.
You see my love we were the perfect pair.
When I wasn't there when you died, my litte heart did tear.

When I heard the phone ring, I knew you left,
This even present from God, It was a theft.
On this world, you are one person God should've kept.
To keep you here Love, I would've gone a great depth.

You should've died with me right beside you,
But I didn't know you were going to die, I didn't have a clue.
I was where the water was crystal blue, on a cruise.
But I would take it all back, just so I would've been there with you

02 mei, 2011


We don't wanna lie but we can't tell the truth either. Do we sit and wait untill the solution falls right out of the sky? Or do we take control and make a decision based on safe feelings?
Knowing that there'll always be people that will be hurt by you, it doesn't even matter what you'll decide. It is up to you who you wanna hurt, who you wanna lie to and who you wanna live for...
And who you wanna live with
He made my days look better,

13 april, 2011

Truth is, I get jealous easily because what mine is mine. I'm stubborn as hell, I say sorry too much, I act like I don't give a fuck because I care too much. I over analyze the smallest of things and probaly come off as a bitch to simply guard myself,

with Loveeee,


12 april, 2011

I believe in angels.. The kind that Heaven sends, I am with them everyday, I call them my very sweet and lovely best friends..
i know im blessed, to have them in my life

10 april, 2011

Everyone is different. And everyone's the same. The sooner we learn that Truth, the sooner the world can become a better place.
Love is all of those wonderful feelings for another person that can not be described by words, only by actions.
Life is what we make of it. We can achieve everything and climb the highest mountain if we simply remain positive even in the darkest moments.
Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catch your heart.
You never lose by loving, you always lose by holding back
The perfect gift for me is already given,
my dear family and true friends,
love them with all of my heart and even my soul.

they made me who i am,
without them i wouldnt be me, i wouldnt be here
they make me stronger everyday,
they give me the feeling to survive, just for them
Family & True Friends
not lucky but,
IM BLESSED to have them in my life,
I still remember the time that I wanted to cry so bad but something inside didnt let me, all i said as i walked away was "It's ok whats the worse thing that can happen after this"? i put on my earphones and right on the corner of his house this song came out, it made me get everything that was being hold inside, my last words to this stituation were "I'll be fine".

i still miss you, everyday, day by day.
and believe me no one is ever gonna replace you, cause they just cant.

07 april, 2011

Dear God,

Oh, well, I know you must be very busy
So I'm not going to mess around,
Just telling how my life is upside down
And I don't know whether I'm going left or right half the time
Sometimes think I'm gonna lose my mind,
just wanted to tell you this,
and make a pray, make a wish,
can you promiss me that everything will be fine again?
let me know
Sunny days, smiling face
Spirit filled, heaven praise
Memories in my mind
Reminiscing of good times
Miracles, so amazed
Soldiers far away,
Weekends and birthdays
Celebrations, holidays
Love making history
A toast to our victories
Sweet dreams, butterflies
Holding hands, side by side
Best friends, families
cocktails, happy hour, wedding bells,
baby showers, vacation, cell phones
we're the ones you love the most
long time no see,
together you and me,
I think i have finally found the real thing

30 maart, 2011

I miss you

it hit me like a ton of bricks to my chest
it's something that i never would of guessed
all the times i shared with you it was the best
i never would of thought you would of left
you were healthy as i dont know what
life is so unfair

if you ever really love somebody
what do you do when you lose somebody
this one is for the broken hearted
for the ones that's feeling all alone
everyday it seems like rain is falling down
but nobody ever seems to be around
these pictures are bitter sweet memories
holding my head from pain that doesn't go away

and the hardest part of this is, i know i will never see you again.
You went upthere before i ever could say goodbye, before i could say anything at all.

wish you were here

miss L,
i miss you, i need you,
why you left me all alone when i need someone to talk
Soon we will meet again, upthere


Life is an opportunity, benefit from it
Life is beauty, admire it
Life is bliss, taste it
Life is a dream, realize it
Life is a challenge, meet it
Life is a duty, complete it
Life is a game, play it
Life is a promise, fulfill it
Life is sorrow, overcome it
Life is a song, sing it
Life is a struggle, accept it
Life is a tragedy, confront it
Life is an adventure, dare it
Life is luck, make it
Life is too precious, do not destroy it,
Life is life, fight for it

With Love,
The worst thing about being lied to is to know you werent worth the truth
Words means nothing without the actions behind it
You ever felt like, its just raining
But its only raining on you...
Live without pretending, Love without depending,
Listen without defending, Speak without offending
Its like a puzzle, got me frustrated,
But im keep trying till the masterpiece is done
True friends are those who walks in when everybody else walks out


you think you just want to die but in reality you just wanted to be saved.. YBM
Dont ever settle for an answer if you still want to know


The bad things in life opens your eyes to the good things you werent paying attention to before,
its true, when i feel down i look up and see this:

My family and friends, so happy that they are a part of my Life,
Im blessed


To love is to risk not being loved in return,
to hope is to risk, To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken,
because the greatest hazard in life is to risk
Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius. and it is better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring
Time is the coin of life. Only you can determine how it will be spend..
Life is a handfull of short stories, pretending to be a novel
I know ive made a lot of mistakes, but i dont regret making any of them. Cause if i hadnt made them, i wouldnt have learned how to make things right.
If youre going through a hell, keep on going
Suffering is the price of being alife


One of the people who will never ever dissapoint me

Wish you were here

i miss you, my very best friend take care up there
They say good things come once in a lifetime,
i guess i missed my opportunity
Be nice to people on your way up, because you need them on you way down..
Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once.
Things turn out the best for those who make the best of the way things turn out
Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated..

My heart

I just need someone who’s always there for me. Someone I can call in the middle of the night. In good and bad times. Just to tell me everything will be alright. The one who will make me feel safe. Someone who will make me laugh when I’m down. Someone who will pick me up even when i'm on the other side of the world. Someone who will do everything for me even when I’m not asking. Someone who cares in the times I’m not. The one who understands me even when I’m not saying a word. The one who I can’t lose. The one who wont break me apart.

26 maart, 2011

i miss you all

Life is like a difficult puzzle, you can try to solve it all,
but there's always gonna be those missing pieces.

For those who ive lost,
its getting harder day by day, knowing i will never see you again,
didnt we say laugh together, cry together, die together..
why you guys are there above and im still here stuck in this mess,
even though im stuck here, I will always love you all, remember you all, forever!
I can make it through the days, cause you all are still deep inside my heart,
I will imagine you all by my side, cause i know you are.

With Love,


My mind

Every person you meet along the way, touches your life in a special way.
I will dedicate this piece to my lovely family and friends,

because of them i can make it through the days,
because of them i feel being loved,
because of them i can smile,
because of them i am not scared to cry,
because of them i am strong,
because of them i stand strong,
because of them i know who i am,
because of them i am who i am,
because of them i am here,

I can handle the world and everything else cause they are by my side

Thank you
for just being there in my life
What's meant to be will always find a way.
Sometimes there is no next time, no time-outs, no second chances.
Sometimes it is now or never

25 maart, 2011

If you love somebody then tell them how you feel dont be scared of their reaction or rejection life is too short. you should take a chance and if things dont work out as you plan dont worry because life moves on and true love will be waiting for you again...
Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile.
So, when you are lonely remember it's true: somebody, somewhere is thinking of you.
Some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of strength.
However, there are times in life in which it takes much more strength to just let go.
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.
You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel
To be honest with you, I don't have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to give you a hug, ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart, a heart that's aching to see you smile again.
Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change
better days are ahead
we'll just lay in bed
laugh untill we're red

A million ways ~

A million ways to say it, sometimes i just forget
million ways to show it, with a simple look or just a kiss
a world gone crazy, i know
sometimes it's just so hard to show how i feel
believing it is real
i would take your love and run
hide the moon behind the sun

just for you,

23 maart, 2011

A better life will come your way the second you get up and start walking toward it

My mind

I love my life
Through my mistakes
i have learned to find my way
i wont surrender
cause it makes me better
The hardest part of love, is letting go..
The only people i need in my life,
are the one that proves me that they needs me in theirs
If one member suffers, all suffer together
FA(nta)5 forever


Being with friends and family is peaceful and gives me the strength to get through the week,
i love you all, thanks for being a part of my life
You do not need to be perfect to be loved

Words of Wisdom

Carefully watch your thoughts
for they become your words.
Manage and watch your words
for they will become your actions.
Consider and judge your actions
for they will become your habits.
Acknowledge and watch your habits
for they shall become your character.
Understand and embrace your character
for it becomes your destiny and your dreams.
You are what you are today,
because of the decisions and the choices you made yesterday

Quote ~

Most people never run far enough on their first wind to find out they've got a second.
Give your dreams all you've got and you'll be amazed at the energy that comes out of you.
- William James -
If you tell the truth, it becomes a part of your past.
If you lie, it becomes a part of your future,

20 maart, 2011

My mind

Have you ever felt like the person you used to be has gone away
if you feel like running and there is nowhere for you to hide
With the world on your shoulder, you hope that it gets better with time

Have you ever looked in the mirror and didnt recognized your own face
The days dont seem to get any cleared,
you wish you could just fade away..

Meet my lovely people ~

Okay, let me tell you something about the lovely people i met.. Who are a big part of my life right now..

Iedereen herkent zich misschien wel in het stukje dat ik over ze schrijf, ik ga namelijk geen namen noemen, maar zogenaamde bijnamen.. spannend!! haha

Okay lets start!

Taaikoh We konden elkaar nog maar net en we deelde al samen een passie: yuuchuu!!!! haha, naarmate we elkaar beter leerde kennen.. kon ik veel dingen bij je kwijt die ik bij geen ander kwijt kon. Je hebt me ook door veel dingen geholpen en andersom stond ik ook altijd voor jou klaar. Ooit winnen wij een plaat $$ (you know what i mean haha)

Fatoe Haha ik kon je pas na een paar dagen ofzo terwijl de rest je wel kon, mijn eerste herinnering die naar jou uitgaat is dat je je nogal snel thuis voelde bij mij xD jeppp je had zelfs je eigen sloffen bij je! We eten samen een witte magnum en doen ''de'' look met de voet, youknowww.. ook jij stond voor mij klaar, en andersom was en is het nog steeds zo! No you there is no me, No me there is no you. The world need us to have some fa2 ;D

AuntieSister You always there for me, hearing my complains about shrek. Help me to choose between things (still i cant choose, but you did your best xd). Aan de andere kant sta ik ook altijd voor jou klaar, en kan je ook klagen bij mij. Even though youre my badluck at gambling, you are my goodluck in life.

NewStart Together we went on a diet, it really worked *not* haha, but sure we had a lot of fun (: you know im always there for you, no matter what or how late.. Zelfs als ik veel dingen aan me hoofd heb dan kan je gewoon aankloppen! ik sta altijd klaar voor mijn zusje, sooo that day we made a brand new start right, Hoop dat je het vol kan houden! if not, you know how to reach me^^!

+ Even though i make fun of you, you must know that it was all a joke! cause i care about you ;) no worries! sorry for hitting you 982349208324x times and 12090394x op je pet.. Still you were always there! And me for you to!

2ling How we met? Ik kan het me nog goed herinneren, we gingen big2en werden verslaafd aan tetris en gingen uiteindelijk veel met elkaar om. Ik heb heel veel respect voor je dat je mijn gezeur altijd aankon en mij altijd kon opvrolijken. Samen hebben we een visbuik die we aan niemand anders laten zien!! Daarom hadden we een 2ling aangeschaf, jepp helaas raakte 1 verdwaald en hadden we er nog maar een :( maar de 2ling is weer samen!! dus visbuik kan weg! Helaas moet je een vervanger zoeken, maar ooooit! halen we die 164 en meer. I know we can, i know you can.

Citroen hahaha, jaja ik geef je deze naam ook al vind je het niet leuk maar denk wel dat je gelijk weet dat ik jou bedoel. Ik ben je steun en toeverlaat en ook toevallig je Hotel. hahaha XD je vind het leuk om mij te pesten maar staat toch altijd klaar om mijn gezeur aan te horen, dus we staan uiteindelijk toch wel altijd gelijk (; Ik kan goed met je praten en je gaf me altijd goed advies. Je bent niet voor niets mijn taaikoh! ook al flash je me vaak ): i will always be there for you, to hear out your complains or to make fun of me.. i spy with your eyes, but i hear with my own ears (: we meet at the apple tree okay?

Bonuspunten Ik ken je nog maar net, maar ik kan het al goed met je vinden. De tijden die we samen doorbrachten was altijd wel leuk en gezellig (: Als ik ergens over wilde praten dan kon je gewoon mee praten omdat je hetzelfde had meegemaakt. Je ging je dus niet alleen inleven, maar je begreep het gewoon. Zo persoon kom ik zelden eigenlijk nooit tegen. In some way youre special to me^^! En aan de andere kant kan je ook gewoon je verhaaltje bij mij kwijt. Ook al ben je niet zo goed in verhaaltjes vertellen of in iets uit te leggen (en ik maar denken dat ik slecht was in dingen uitleggen) haha. In een korte tijd zijn we goed bevriend met elkaar geraakt. Dat heb ik niet bij veel mensen, so start feeling special! haha. In een kleine tijd ben jij een groot deel in mijn leven gaan spelen. (weet niet of deze zin klopt maar je begrijpt me wel hoop ik!) En oooit maken we ons lijstje af ;p

Big brother Haha ik ken je al mijn hele leven lang, en toch kan je geen dag langer met me uithouden omdat mijn leven te druk is, hoe kom je erbij :p maar ik vond het gebaar wel lief van je. We hebben samen veel meegemaakt goede en slechte dingen. We hebben grote en kleine ruzies gehad maar het kwam altijd wel weer goed met ons. Gelukkig maar! want ik zou niet weten hoe ik zou moeten leven zonder mijn grote broer!

Jaa, ik ben natuurlijk heel wat mensen vergeten, maar daar komt nog een 2e deel van! want mijn hersens en traanbuizen staan op tilt door alle leuke herinneringen op te halen en mijn energie is op om nog meer te typen..

maar de mensen die ik heb opgenoemd en de mensen die ik niet heb opgenoemd maar weten dat ze een groot deel van mijn leven zijn.
Ik zal jullie nooit vergeten!
uit het oog betekend niet altijd uit het hart

Ik sta klaar, maakt niet uit hoe druk of hoe ver ik ook van jullie ben,
ik zal altijd voor jullie klaarstaan!

Everything will be okay at the end, if it is not okay it is not the end..


I believe that everything happens for a reason..
People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they are right,
you believe lies so that you will eventually learn to trust no one but yourself,
and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together
Strong people make as many mistakes as weak people.
The difference is that strong people admit their mistakes,
laugh at them and learn from them

My mind

I dont understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night.
How pictures never change but people in them do.
How your best friend can became your worst enemy, or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend.
How forever turns into a few short months that you would do almost anything to get back.
How you can let go of something you once said you couldnt live without.
How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same.
How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare.
How people can make promises despite knowing how cammon it is for promises to be broken.
How people can erase you from their lives just because it is easier then working things out.

explain me
Because in the end that is what i am,
Im just a normal girl with flaws and imperfections

World messed up

It seems that when you want someone, they dont want you
And when someone wants you, you dont want them.
And when you both want eachother,
Something has to come around and mess it all up..
Believe that dreams come true everyday,
cause they do
You will, when you believe

Quote ~

Happiness isnt about getting what you want all the time,
its about loving what you have

okay, i couldnt choose which group picture was the best..
yessss i couldnt choose.. AGAIN T__T
But this was a lovely day! i am gonna miss these good times
but i will treasure them in my heart and mind.
out of eye doesnt always mean out of heart


3x is scheepsrecht! This was a fun day!
I can be everything u want me to, but i am always true to myself.
Enjoying life on Planet Earth.
Preparing to pop out of my cocoon and become the butterfly I always was

My family next to my other family

haha, okay deze titel beetje weird.. let me explain ;D

dus je hebt een familie waarin je geboren word, die je niet voor het kiezen hebt
(dont get me wrong i love this family, my family!)..
maar je hebt ook een groep vrienden waar je veel mee omgaat die je als familie gaat beschouwen..

Soo this year i got a new brother from another mother and 3 sisters from another mister!
and i will call them my FA5 family <3
natuurlijk vergeet ik niet de + (also known as the 6th wheel)

through good, through bad..
together through whatever

i love them and i will miss them
always in my heart

forever and more!

My mind

Lately i have been trying so hard to ''solve'' my problems. Nothing worked, I cried myself to sleep for the last months and i am pretty sick of it. I came to a conclusion..

The world won't wait for me. First i thought i needed to look at the problems i had in my past and solve them, before i could think about the future.
But now i think it is better if i just accept them, forgive myself and others and let the past be the past.
It is still a weird feeling that I miss parts of my life, but if that's the price I need to pay to be happy again then I'm okay with it.
I'm not saying that everything is going well. Today I admitted to myself that I'm not perfeclty happy, and just accepting that already made me feel so much better.
From now on I don't expect anything from life. There is nothing else i can do then accepting that some things arent meant to be.

This is a brand new start for me and i am gonna do it right this time

Quote ~

Changing the world begins with the very personal proces of changing yourself,
the only place where you can begin is where you are,
and the only time when you can begin is always now

Welcome back to myself

Hi, well guess who is back..

it was little girl in the big city of Amsterdam
and now it is litte girl moved from big city Amsterdam to big city Rotterdam,

maak je niet druk, its the same old me xd.. of maak je je daarom juist druk om wuhahaha..

maargoed jaja update update ik was deze blog helemaaaal vergeten!
en zo te zien heb ik er ook niet echt veel aan gedaan wuhahaha..
ik probeer vanaf nu zo nu en dan wat te plaatsen..

tekst, gedachtes, quotes, diary or whatever.

read, enjoy, hate, love.
i dont care its your time, your life.
do whatever you wanna do.
No regrets!

live life to the fullest!


24 juli, 2009

Quote ~

You would give up anything for the one you love,
but the one that loves you wouldn't ask you to do..

23 juli, 2009

A blog on Friendship, Dedicated to a special person.

Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.

Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.

Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life..

Like any other kind of love, friendship can be lost within our lives due to neglect or anger or, sometimes, simply circumstances. However it is lost, we often lose a part of ourselves that can never quite be recovered..

This piece will be dedicated to my dearest best friend.. cause i didnt spend a lot of time on our friendship. I am sorry. Cause you and i know that what we once had was a strong friendship, but through time it faded away. That didn't mean i stopped caring for you..

I'm not sure when it happened, But I'm very glad it did..
You came into my life when I really needed a friend

The more I get to know you, The more I know myself..
And this is why I'm thankfull.. For you just being yourself,

You and I are different but in many ways the same,
Your good ear, compassionate heart
and you always there when i needed someone to talk,
I promise you that i will always be here for you till the end and forever,
even though we dont spent a lot of time together,
You are the true definition of My Very Best Friend!
And i am thankfull that youre my best friend, i am thankfull that i am your best friend
what we have is timeless, even that we dont see eachother or talk to eachother a lot..
but when we are together or when we are talking..
we sure do have a lot of fun! haha,

And in the future, i am really really trying to make time for our friendship..
cause what we have is strong and special, what we have is a true friendship,
and it would be sad if that ended..

22 juli, 2009

I Love my Family <3

Family is, heaven sent, bonded by the power of love.
No matter what family has each others back, when push comes to shove.
Family is, understanding, never demanding, all for one and one for all,
I will never leave you alone standing. Family is, one in itself,
my love is your love, your pain is my pain, my health is your health,
I promise to never leave you by yourself. Family is, the strongest team,
the strongest unit; if love could be visualized, family would be the blue print.
Family is, forgiveness and patience, it's sweeter than the sweetest fragrance,
the power of family is a reflection of Gods compassion and magnificence.
Family is, never turning our back, and never shames, lend my helping hand
and not a finger pointing the blame. No matter what a family bond can never be broken,
even through a nuclear explosion, if one of us lives we all live.
Forever to eternity, we are family, my father, my mother, my sisters and me.
And don’t forget my Rabbit as big as a cat, Who thinks he is a dog, His name is; Monkey, He belongs to the Family too <3

ps. sorry mommy for your closed eyes, but there wasnt any other picture of us all, good and normal :$